My Pink Roadmap

Greetings from Cafe Gratitude in San Rafael, California!

I have been pondering, how The Magical Eyes Tour has made me stronger as a Pinkie, since @FrankDickinson proposed me with the question almost a month ago. It is only now that I am able to articulate specifically where I am emotionally in relation to The Magical Eyes Tour on a Pink level.

When I Was Young(er)
For as far back as I can remember, I have changed my mind about anything and everything I could at least 10 times a day. Whether it was the outfit I wanted to wear, what profession I wanted when I grew up, marriage, kids, hair color, college, boyfriends, places to live, vacations to take, dinner dates, jobs, cars, car insurance, the shape of my eye-brows and yes, even my friends. My mind never seemed to be made up. I can remember my mother rolling her eyes every time I would come up with a new idea for something I wanted to pursue or my latest boyfriend, when she had just met a different person last week. One Christmas, I even received a t-shirt that said, “I love everyone, and YOU’RE next!” Today that shirt would take on a new meaning for me, but at the time, it was one more scrape on an open wound.

I don’t blame my mother for my open wound. It was exhausting being the person changing her mind frequently. I can only imagine how it must have felt to be the person having to listen to it. I would be happy to say that as I have gotten older, my stick-to-it-ivness has grown into something that I can rely on, but I would be lying. It is only now that I am attempting to shed away the triggers I have created over my lifetime that have led me to mentally punish myself for changing my mind and going back and forth between what I once said I would do. I wish this were as easy to do as it is to say.

As I Got Older
Although my stick-to-it-ivness is no better in some areas then it was when I was younger, it has altered quite a bit. At times, I still get consumed with panicked ideas of things I need to do right now in order to get what I want. But when those moments of panic come over me- I know the choice I am considering is not the right one. When the right choice is proposed to me, it feels calm, cool, collective, effortless even. I am more aware that the path I am on today is purposeful, driven and rewarding. To act in haste would be acting out of fear.

The Magical Eyes Tour
So, with that said- I have decided to continue The Magical Eyes Tour, however, I will not be driving (or at least not after June.) What I really desire is to have a home life and travel monthly- now I can see how this is possible. To be quite frank, I miss having a place to come home to on a regular basis, spending time with Brawn (the BF,) and many of my friends and family in the area. Shifting from car to plane transportation will allow me to have it all, and who doesn’t want that?!

I would be lying if I said there wasn’t that voice in my head saying, “here she goes, changing her mind again! Ugh.” But I am choosing to ignore it. My passion still lies with the Pinkies. My journey will still be a vibrant one, filled with adventure, lessons, love and sharing. It will just look different then the way I had first planned. The most important thing is that there will still be endless amounts of Magical Eyes Experiences to share with you all.

How Has The Magical Eyes Tour Made Me Different as a Pinkie?
It has created a space for me to give myself permission to journey out, explore somethings I think I might want and then allow myself the space and forgiveness  to say no, and change my mind. When you think about it- if we were all born knowing exactly what we wanted in life, how to get it and what we liked- it would be a very boring existence.

The Invitation
I invite you to look at areas of your life that you might be unhappy or uncertain with. Think of new possibilities for creating something exciting in place what already exists. Give yourself permission to grow, stretch, change your mind and explore! And remember the only one who can choose to live in suffering is you.

Brawn Came To Visit
What a week this was. I knew going into this journey that some wonderful discoveries would be in store. It’s only been a little over a month and already so many surprises have turned up.

Brawn flew in from Dallas, Texas to San Francisco, California this past Saturday. Having him here was wonderful and the PLEAP he took to get here was even more profound. Seeming as how he had never flown before, getting on plane, alone, to fly half way across the country was rather impressive and a complete representation of what our relationship means to him. (So thank you, Brawn, for that.)

After spending Saturday through Tuesday together, Brawn departed back to Dallas. In spite of my tears and objections, he had obligations to tend to back home. I would be lying if I didn’t say there was a part of me that wanted to go with him. However, I feel that there is much for me to learn from this journey that is yet to be discovered. While he was here, we decided to reclaim out relationship status and make the long distance work to the best of our abilities. Needless to say, I am rather excited. A large part of me feels whole again having made that agreement.

Owning Pink: The Pink Posse
With Owning Pink taking on new roles in cyber-space and in the physical world; the tasks that I perform are shifting quickly and often. For a little while, it was hard to keep up. What has helped me work through all of this is constantly reminding myself that “this is not about me.” What Owning Pink is out to accomplish is so much bigger then me or any other one person. I am here to serve I higher purpose, to be a vessel for the divine that channels through me- whatever that looks like. Owning Pink is simply the best tool for me to use to accomplish this, right here, right now.

I have come to acknowledge recently that The Pink Posse of Dallas’ growth is extremely important to me. Although I left this group of incredible people back in Dallas while I am on The Magical Eyes Tour, I am still very much a part of their existence and want to continue being involved in the event production. Having Owning Pink expand has raised the stakes for me. More Pinkies will be able to find us in Dallas, our group and events will get larger, and I will have a bigger audience to cater my workshops to; which will inevitably lead to many more Pinkies living a life they love and following their passions and dreams. The thought of this brings tears to my eyes, goose-bumps to my arms, and warmth to my soul. What a dream this is for ME, to be able to hold that space, for you.

The Invitation
I think I will wrap up my ramblings and ask, what is it that The Pink Posse of Dallas can do for YOU? What do you want more of? What kinds of events and workshops are appealing to you? What are you searching for, but don’t know how to get?

Within the past 8 months or so, I decided being a life coach was something I deeply wanted to do with my life. As many people know (the same as with becoming a therapist) in order to BE a life coach, you must first HAVE a life coach. So, this week I went and met with @ripelife, something I have been wanting to do for as long as I can remember.

The session was exciting, wonderful and exhausting. It brought me face to face with all of the BIG things I have going on in my life. Not only that, but it slapped me in the face with what was at the bottom of it all; balance and wellness. Something I very little of in either area of my life and hadn’t even realized it until a month after the ending of my last relationship.

For some odd reason it never occurred to me that some of the things I didn’t like about what was going on in the relationship was my fault (who would have guessed that?!) Not that it is necessary to point fingers in order to work through things, but taking responsibility is. This is something that I am working on.

What I hadn’t realized was that I had a perpetual pattern of being an all or nothing kind of girl. I was either all work or all play. This posed a problem in my past when I never wanted to go to work and spend all my time with my boyfriend, but until this point it had never created conflict in my relationship. That was until; I found a job that I loved with Owning Pink. In which case, my relationship (which was very important to me) took the back seat and before I knew it had dissolved through my fingers without having realized exactly what had happened.

Achieving balance in my life is something that I believe stems from having wellness. Another thing I pay very little attention to. Through out my coaching session we put some goals in place to help me achieve a more balanced, well, life. That is why a life coach is there. To help you break through walls that are keeping you from realizing your greatness, to keep you motivated and reminded of why it is you are here and give you that little kick in the pants when you need it most!

Needless to say I am very excited about this life I am creating, all the facets that come along with it and would like to be able to create with someone else. So, I look at this journey as prepping myself for the soul mate experience; it takes two to tango.

We are all just here, learning, absorbing, teaching and growing. The moment you think you have it all figured out, is the moment you need to look in the mirror and go deeper.

Love to You,
Megan Monique

Upon my first encounter with Lissa Rankin, her 4 year old, Siena, husband Matt and Dana- we decided to have a dance party. Siena insisted on bringing out her instruments. Upon which we all picked our favorites: the triangle, the clapper, sandpaper blocks and other musings that made pleasant noises. Lissa cranked up her iPod to Cher, Do You Believe In Life After Love and we all danced the song away. 

I can't really recall the last time I had a dance party in the middle of no where, for no particular reason. It sure felt good letting lose, shaking my groove thang and loving the space I was in.

What I Want From You:
The next time you find yourself bored with nothing to do. I suggest cranking up the tunes and creating your own dance party; why not?

This weekend was a busy one. Friday evening I arrived in Berkeley, California after leaving Corona, California. Seeing Joy’s face for the first time and feeling her hug was a blessing to say to the least. I felt like I was home.

Sunday was a whole other adventure in itself; the first ever Owning Pink Think Tank brunch. I would like to write another story about my experience at this event in itself, but there are not enough words to describe the magic that took place that day. Imagine sitting in room with approximately 10-12 other minds, brain storming for how we are going to make strides to save the world. Yes- I said it, save the world.

I was brought present to the power we each have as human beings. Though we are all interconnected, there is a distinct part of each one of us that brings something new and unique to the world. No two minds think exactly alike.

What is my power? My power is Love. I know that may sound a little cheesy, but it is true. I have the ability to BE and experience love to its fullest. Not only that, but I have the ability to share it and see it in others- even if they don’t want to show it. My purpose in life is to be and share love. I radiate it, I live it and yes, I love, that I am love.

What I Want from You:
I invite you to look into yourself and decide what your strengths are. What is it that you have to offer this world? What do you want to share with others? What inspires you? Drives you? Motivates you? And more importantly, what are you going to do with it?