My Pink Roadmap

With the endless commercials for depression medications, constant talk of finding our true joy and passion in life and the ever so challenging search for our Mojo it is easy to get lost in the whirl wind of ‘why am I not happy? How do I get to where they are? And what is wrong with me?

This past week was an emotional roller coaster for me. Mind you, I have nothing to really be sad about; food is in my belly, I have friends that love me, a fantastic job and a promising future. But for some reason I just couldn’t pull myself out of this feeling of sadness that over came me. 

So, all week long, I sat with it. I asked my sadness questions:

1. Why are you here? Why now?
2. What can I gain from your consumption of my brain, heart and being?
3. When are you going to leave me?
   

The sadness never really answered me back, but my subconscious did. The inner Goddess was whispering, ‘It’s alright little Pinkie, your body needed this sadness to know it is still alive and is growing and expanding as we speak. This too shall pass.’  In the midst of listening to my inner Goddess, I was able to be in the sadness. Although I didn’t understand what had come over me, I was able to except the fact that the sadness was there, let it do what it needed to and eventually leave. I like to imagine that the sadness was the water fertilizing the soil of my soul. (Not so sad anymore is it?)

Don’t get me wrong Pinkies, in no way am I belittling depression or loss of Mojo, those are both very real, very different, very valid things. (insert Mojo/Depression post link here.) However, we are merely humans trying to get by on a daily basis to live our dreams, find our joy and have loving, authentic connections with one another. We are all going to have our down days, our down weeks and sometimes, yes, our down months. The important thing to keep in mind is that nothing lasts forever, as sure as there are bumps in the road, there are just as many straight-aways. 

The next time you feel the sadness coming over you, don’t be afraid of it- embrace it. There are no coincidences in life each encounter, emotion, interaction that comes into play if part of creating our ‘Big Picture’ into existence. We cannot always see what lies ahead, but rest assured the Universe will not steer us wrong.

Let It Be,
Megan Monique